Dreams

This will be an on-going sort of thing about the strange, terrifying, and happy dreams I have over the course of time.

Night of April 21-22:
Dreamt that a kid that was in my graduating class (who died almost a year ago) was still alive. He was good friends with Zac, so I called him to tell him that he was still alive but didn't know how, I just knew I saw him. In another part of the dream, my diamond in my engagement ring fell out. But we found it, so it was alright, but it was pretty scary. Also dreamt that my French teacher was calling me and I could not figure out why, then I realized that it was Wednesday and it was 10:22 in the morning, which meant I was already 22 minutes late for my final exam.
Analysis: Not sure why I was dreaming about that kid when I hadn't spoken to him, except when Zac made me go with him to his house when a bunch of people were there (drinking, of course), since the sixth grade. We weren't exactly in the same circle until Zac and I started dating, and even then, I'm still not a part of that whole scene. I hate parties, so yeah. And if I go by what I believe, why would he be visiting my dreams? Why not visit Zac or one of his good friends instead of wasting the energy on me? Strange. Don't know what the loss of and then finding of my diamond means, so moving on to the next part. I have never had a dream that involved missing class or an exam or anything and it makes me nervous. I'm going to be at like 8:00 on Tuesday night, I swear...
Night of April 24-25:
This was the actual night before/morning of my final exam, so I freaked out a little bit. But I had almost the same exact dream about sleeping in for my exam! Only my French professor didn't call me that time. I woke up   late and was trying to decide whether it'd be faster to walk to class or wait for a bus, because depending on when the bus got to my stop, I sometimes wonder if it would have been faster just to walk, even though I already was late. Then I woke up and it was like 7 in the morning, so I set two more alarms to avoid a crisis and went back to sleep.
Analysis: Was I really that concerned about this exam? It's my major, and I'm really good at it, so I don't have to do much in it to catch on and do really well. Was it because I didn't study as much as I thought I should and was worried about failing it in the first place? I wasn't stressed out about it when I was taking it, so it's unlikely. Was it because I subconsciously realized that I'd forgotten my dictionary at my parents' house and since I was actually able to use it, I was feeling the pressure of it? Who knows. I sure don't. Hopefully I did well, despite the lost sleep over worrying about sleeping in. Haha.
Night of May 9-10:
I had a dream about the jackass again. I don't remember a lot, just random scenes. I don't know why, but whoever was driving me dropped me off too soon and Preston was driving by and he picked me up to take me to where I needed to go. I remember looking down at my hands the entire time, I didn't talk to him, I was very uncomfortable and I was playing with my ring, hoping he'd notice it. We reached my destination and I had a bunch of gowns with me, all different colors and styles. I didn't feel like it was a fashion show, but that's the only thing I can think of that it could be. And I don't know if he kissed me or not, I can't remember. But I remember waiting for Zac to show up and save me, knowing all along that he wouldn't because he's gone right now.
Analysis: Why is Preston popping up in my dreams again? I can understand why I felt a little bitter in my dream about Zac not being able to come and help me out of the situation, we'd had an uncomfortable Skype call right before I went to bed. But why is Preston in my dream at all? Is it because I'm that worried about seeing him every time I go home to Ellwood? Is it because I feel like he should know that I'm getting married? Or worried how he'll react when he does find out?
Random Nights in May (I Forget...)
The first dream I had that I forget what day it was was with me and Zac and we were in the heat of the moment. You know, that moment when you're about to get it on and are all over each other but aren't all the way yet. Anyways, he started to enter me with my panties still on and right when we were about to get rid of the obtrusion, his friends started to walk into his barracks room! So awful...
Analysis: I'm not gonna lie, I'm really missing his loving. So I'm pretty sure that's a self-explanatory dream.
The next dream is weird. I don't remember much of it anymore, but it had Zac in it and another friend, whom I haven't heard from since October (well... I just heard from him today, barely, but when I'd had the dream, it had been since October). Anyways, Zac and I were together and our friend came up to me and gave me a great big bear hug, just like the ones I remember and was so fond of. I could practically feel it for real. Also, in that dream, I ended up standing in a doorway and my deceased maternal grandfather walked by. He just looked at me and smiled... it was an amazing visit <3
Analysis: Well, I miss my Zac and my friend dearly, but I'm not sure why my friend popped up all of a sudden. Maybe I somehow knew I was going to see his brother soon or hear from him personally soon? Maybe we'll be meeting up for lunch in the near future? Who knows. I hope I get to see him and talk to him before I move away. If nothing else, I need my grandfather's watch back... which could also be why my grandfather was in my dream. Or, it could be my initial thoughts, which were that he wanted to convey to me that he was happy for me and still investing some time into watching over my life and wanted to let me know he was proud or that he was doing well wherever he is. Maybe he wanted to meet Zac, and this was his only way to do it and he picked a good night to dip into my subconscious because that was one night he was able to meet him. I don't usually consciously think of my grandfather... I mean, I do from time to time, but it's not the longing I feel when I miss Zac, so I'm not sure what prompted the visit. Maybe it was all on him. I'd like to think of it that way... <3