Life [As I Know It]: So Much

Lots of things have happened in the past few days. So Tuesday, I went over to my sister's apartment to stay the night and help her do some moving the next morning. We ate pizza, played some Yahtzee, and continued to clean the apartment. Wednesday morning, bright and early, we started moving things into the U-Haul they (my sister and her hubby) rented. I then went to class but came back right after to keep helping. There was a bomb threat that morning, but not in my building, so I still had to go to class (though later in the evening, after I finally went home from my sister's, I got another text message from Pitt saying there was a bomb threat in the Cathedral of Learning... which is my building, but I didn't have class at that time of night). Anyways, Thursday we went out to lunch to our favorite French restaurant and ordered our favorite meal (la salade du poulet avec le pain, et pour le dessert, la mousse au chocolat) and then walked around Shadyside to the bank and Target (I needed to get the final touches for Zac's care package) before going back to her apartment. I stayed with them until 7 p.m. when they were heading out for their trip across the country. And I am heartbroken, I miss my sister so much already. We've gotten so close over the past two years. Since she is so much older than me, when I was younger, we didn't grow up like normal sisters. I had an idolization of my sister (I still do) but now that i'm 20 and she's 30, it's more like we're sisters instead of child and babysitter. So I was super sad Thursday :( Friday, I worked early (6-10) and then on my way home from work, I got a text message from Pitt saying there was a bomb threat in the Cathedral and so instead of class, I took a nap. After my nap, I showered and got ready for the Jackson family function I got to go to. Before I left Oakland to meet his parents and brother at the Mt. Nebo park and ride, I sent out my first care package to Zac :) I'm so proud of it. I'll post pictures of what all I put in it. I fit 11 and a half pounds of shit into a medium sized flat rate box. Incredible :) After that, we drove to Aunt Beth's house and I was warmly welcomed with hugs and congratulations (from the family members that weren't there on Christmas to hear about the proposal firsthand) and wine. The win was delicious. I loved visiting with his family (my future family <3) and I truly do miss them when I don't get to see them often. They remind me of my own family and they just give me the best feeling. His sister brought her new boyfriend and he left a good impression on me. He reminded me a lot of Zac and I really hope he doesn't give this guy too hard of a time, but by the time he gets to meet him, they'll probably be a lot more serious and it will make it hard for Zac to accept him. If he behaves with Zac as he did with me, however, I don't think there's anyway that Zac can't like him. I feel so bad, though, because Zac somehow missed our scheduled Skype date with his family and I haven't gotten to talk to him yet about what happened... I'm not sure if he got called in on a Saturday or called in Friday night or if he just couldn't wake up for some reason or if his internet went AWOL... not sure. Hopefully I hear from him today and can tell him hello for everyone and that his Pap has a knife that will be in my possession until he gets back <3
I miss him more and more with every passing day... I wish he could've been there with me to show off my ring and to tell everyone how we were doing and what our plans were and why we couldn't get married and why we didn't make it to the ball and how he says "when" we have kids and I say "if" we have kids. How I tell his family that what we do isn't hard... loving him is the easiest thing I've ever done. It just sucks to have to be without my best friend. Always has sucked, and always will. Loneliness always plagues my heart. :'(