This Weekend

So Thursday the 22nd was my grandpap's birthday. He lost his battle with cancer on January 8, 2007. There are certain days that I think of him more than usual. Obviously, January 8. March 22, which is his birthday. New Year's Eve because one year he fell and broke his hip (bad memory) but another year was a really great and infamous memory of him throughout the whole family. Every New Year's Eve we all play Pictionary. He would always draw so small and his eye-sight was going pretty fast. So he started drawing and no one could guess it in time, so when he finally tells us he was trying to draw a "bunny nose", we looked at the card and it said "runny nose"... we joked about that for years and years after and we still do. Mother's day is always hard because every year he would give the ladies in the family a rose to show how much he appreciates us... I still have the last rose he ever gave to me. Anyways, on to Friday the 23rd, which is my big brother's birthday. We got together down by the creek and we made little paper boats with messages on there for our grandpap to "read" and we put some of his ashes in the boats and set them free to float in the creek. It was really nice... afterwards, we went up to my gram's house and we watched the funeral (my parents are videographers, so pretty much everything is on film in my family). My gram was sobbing... the only time I'd seen her cry before that was at the actual funeral. She's so strong... I don't know what I'll do when I lose Zac... I'd be ready to die, too.
This is something I wish I could share with my Zac, but it's been four days since I've heard from him, so I haven't been able to. Four days and so much has happened... I don't even have an address to write him. I have Facebook, but he rarely checks it and he doesn't have a phone number to reach him. I just can't wait until this deployment is totally over.
I digress. So the rest of the weekend, I worked Saturday morning and then I went down to Ellwood to visit with my family some more. I had dinner with them and I even played my dad in some cards. I stayed the night and Sunday, I woke up to go to the park with my friend and we walked all over the place. We went to eat afterwards and ran into a guy I graduated with and his new girlfriend, who is the ex of my ex and the most awkward run in I could probably have other than running into my ex. She and I, to put it nicely, don't get along. So I was excited to see my old friend, but I didn't know how to talk to him without being a bitch for not talking to her. So what do I do? I don't talk to either of them and I feel like a jerk. Ah well. Later in the day, I went walking with my mom, too. She and I want to start walking and jogging together more often, so hopefully I'll move back sooner rather than later so I can do that with her a lot before I move to California. I plan on moving out of my apartment before the lease is up, but still making the remainder of the payments, of course. The point in time that I plan to move is still up in the air.
There have also been a few other issues I've been having that I really want to be talking to Zac about, but haven't been able to yet... I really hope I get to hear from him tonight.

My paper boat note for my grandpap <3