July 11, 2012

So yesterday was my two year and eight month anniversary with my Zac. Yes, I still count by months and no, I still don't care if it's juvenile. I will still be doing it. Now that that is out of the way, yesterday was a day off for me, so I spent it with my mom and two of my nieces and my nephew. One of my nieces, Kai, is staying the week with us, then we're trading for her sister at the end of the week and then the week after that, we'll have the both of them. So right now it's just Kai and we had Riley and Jonah over, too. We went to Aldi's and Walmart together and Riley was my little shadow. I love that little girl to pieces :) I bought The Hunger Games, since I finished my two books that I bought last week already. And then we stopped at Blocher's Jewelers to find some charms for my mom and a really nice woman there shined up my ring for me; it looks spectacular, just like when he first gave it to me. She told me to bring it in anytime and they would do it for me! So very sweet of her. When we finally went home, I finished the remainder of my book (which was FANTASTIC!) and went to bed, with my computer on, naturally, awaiting a potential middle of the night Skype call. That call did not come until a little after 11:00 this morning, however, which is fine with me. When he leaves for Australia, I won't really hear from him much over the Internet. He says he's going to spend a lot of time in the McDonald's on base for the free WiFi, but I told him to not worry about it and have fun while he's there. He needs to thoroughly enjoy his experience of travelling around the world and not have to worry about me too much. But I will be expecting letters. A lot of letters ;) What was different about today, though, was that when we were hanging up, I almost cried. I really miss him so much and I haven't cried in probably two months, which is great and all, but sometimes I just need a release like that and it won't come. And it still didn't today. But it's ok, I'm ok, and everything is going to be ok. I just hope that he stays safe and comes home to me unscathed. He hasn't changed in any significant ways throughout this deployment, thankfully. Even though it's not a combat zone, I know different experiences change people and I'm glad that his personality has already developed so strongly and that he's happy with they way he is that he hasn't felt the winds of change brush his mind. I'm going to miss seeing and hearing his personality in his voice, but when he writes letters, I can hear his voice when I read it and I can just tell the way he's saying things and the sarcasm he'll use or the excitement or the boredom and the tiredness. No matter how much I'll miss him, I know that it's a short period of time compared to all of the time we'll get to spend together afterwards and the reunions are always worth the separations. I love him to pieces and I miss him so much and I can't wait until he's home <3